I feel so tired and wanted to take some sleep, I wish I just can do that like the others I see. I am in bed with my laptop on top of me while I imagine myself relaxing and just to feel the bliss of a sound sleep.
I wanted to write something on a paper, but I can't find my pen. I have it just beside me as I always do but when I try to look for it now I can't seem to find it.
My room was quite messy before but I am comfortable with everything around, and even if it wasn't that ordered, I can seem to find my things unlike now. Combs missing on the dresser, pen not on the usual place, deodorant doesn't seem to be in place where I usually have it. I find it more messy now than before.
I want to stand my right, I want to speak out what's inside me but every time I do... It turns out to be "my fault" or lets just say my mistake. The most that I hate in life is when people find's time to see and count the mistakes than what has been the good that I have done.
I need someone, I need somebody to listen to me. Someone that meets my kind of needs and who simply catches the waves on my brain.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Wattah!
For the second time, google suspended my adsense account and I don't know why. WOW! that's so great of having one. You will just have to wake up one morning just to find out that its all gone!
MY BAD!
Another thing that brought my anger into the 9nth power is that, I have clients around but I can't comply all the task in a day all by myself. I used to have my girl friend to help me along, but she already sent her self to school that leads to the reason that she can no longer do the task even for just 5 signature forums each for 1 site. DAMN IT!
I just can't sit here and do all things myself and everyone is giving me all the finances responsibility! I'd rather be alone than find myself responsible with all the things I am unhappy with.
Pay insurance, pay telephone bills with the calls I never made!that sucks! I wanna die I wanna get out of here! I want a life of my own! I am earning just enough, I wanna save that's the most of my goal that's why I work hard. But my family doesn't find time to see that hard work on me. Instead if one's sees me around they would try to think on things they want and wanted to spend my income.
I can't even buy things for myself except that car I just bought that I am not the one who uses it really. They are using it for my nephews school service. I paid the gasoline 'coz its a headache on me if I won't have to put in a gasoline for me to use it on emergency.
I hate my life more than anybody know. I hate my responsibilities that no one sees.
MY BAD!
Another thing that brought my anger into the 9nth power is that, I have clients around but I can't comply all the task in a day all by myself. I used to have my girl friend to help me along, but she already sent her self to school that leads to the reason that she can no longer do the task even for just 5 signature forums each for 1 site. DAMN IT!
I just can't sit here and do all things myself and everyone is giving me all the finances responsibility! I'd rather be alone than find myself responsible with all the things I am unhappy with.
Pay insurance, pay telephone bills with the calls I never made!that sucks! I wanna die I wanna get out of here! I want a life of my own! I am earning just enough, I wanna save that's the most of my goal that's why I work hard. But my family doesn't find time to see that hard work on me. Instead if one's sees me around they would try to think on things they want and wanted to spend my income.
I can't even buy things for myself except that car I just bought that I am not the one who uses it really. They are using it for my nephews school service. I paid the gasoline 'coz its a headache on me if I won't have to put in a gasoline for me to use it on emergency.
I hate my life more than anybody know. I hate my responsibilities that no one sees.
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